Something I Struggle With

One main thing I struggle with is school. I have never been the straight A student, with a 4.0 GPA, and ever since I can remember I went back a fourth with good grades and bad grades. I believe some of the issue was changing school so many times, and having different types of curriculum within the five different schools.
I started school at Goodpasture in Pre-K and stayed there until the third grade. Second grade is when I remember everything hitting the fan! My grades were the worlds worst, and no one wanted to help me at all. My parents begged for help, and even had me tested for ADHD and a learning disorder. They did this because the school actually told her there was something wrong with me.
After only a half year in the third grade my mom transferred me to Pioneer, where they tested my skill levels and put me back into the second grade for the remainder of the year. Being put back helped me tremendously. I started receiving the good grades, and everything went great until fifth grade. The school shut down, and I was moved yet again to a Catholic school, St.Pius.
Starting St.Pius I absolutely hated it! We had to go to church every morning, and I had a nun as teacher, and it all was just going wrong. I did not like the idea of not being catholic and going to a catholic school.
Even though I was hating school, I was still making good grades, and half way through sixth grade I actually started to like it and grow close to my 11 other classmates. The next two year I grew even more happy with this school, and when it come to the end of eighth grade, I did not want to leave and go to high school. I did not want to grow into a new school again.
Then came high school at Pope. Where I decided to go because all of my friends were going there, and it was the school to be in! Well, instead of growing to love it like St.Pius I grew to hate it! I personally hated it, it was not my mom this time. I found that my grades were as bad as third grade, and I was fighting for someone to help me with school. I would go to tutorials before and after school where I was told to ask if i had questions. I had no idea what I had questions on, because I got left so far behind. Figuring this out I chose to transfer schools once again.
I transferred to Father Ryan sophomore year, and I honestly can say that it was the best decision of my life. I found that the teachers at FR actually cared about their students, and wanted to help.I spent the rest of my high school years at FR, and now I attend Vol State.
Vol State seems to be very hopeful, and from what I can tell, they will help me as well.
I chose to talk about school, because it is something I have dealt with since day one, and I am that student who just can not wait to be done with school, but I have learned so much about myself just from each school.

"Those who trust in the Lord will find new strengths. -Isaiah 40:31"

***This post is not to hate on any of these schools, or try to change a persons thought of one, it is just my personal experience with each school I have attended:)***

10 Songs I Like Right Now

1. Sorry - Beyoncé
2. Don't Mind - Kent Jones
3. 7 Years - Lukas Graham
4. Sit Still, Look Pretty - Daya
5. H.O.L.Y - Florida Georgia Line
6. Tennessee Whiskey - Chris Stapleton
7. Really Really - Kevin Gates
8. Low Life - Future
9. One Dance - Drake
10. Noise - Kenny Cheney

Five Ways to In My Heart

• Show me your sense of humor

I like guys who have a sense of humor. Show me you’re not boring to be with, and you can go along with my jokes. Laugh with me.  Share your stories and thoughts with me.  Show me you’re an open minded person, effortlessly as breathing. Because I love to be with these kind of people. 

• Show me your respect

Show me your respect.  For me, respecting others who are also mean, being honest to them, because you’re respecting their feelings. I hate guys who don’t know how to be respectful, even with their parents. Be a true gentleman by showing your respect. 

• Show me your intelligence and talents

I don’t like a guy who acts like he doesn’t know anything. I want guys who look very intelligent and nice; he looks professional, something like he was aware of everything. Guys with a sporty attitude, is a major turn on with me. Express those talents! 

• Show me your sweetness and efforts

Someone who will sing to me late night until I fall asleep. Someone who will make a call at night to whisper “I love you”. Someone who will give me handmade presents, like drawings, scrapbooks, letters etc. Someone who will not always praise my physical appearance but rather what he loves about my personality. Someone who will tell me, “Let’s go to church” “Don’t forget to say sorry and thank you to God before you sleep”. Someone who will tell me to be a good girl with my parents and someone who will greet my parents very professional and nice.

• Show me you love God and you obey him.

A Christian who loves God and knows how to obey him, the guy who his family is also God believer.

5 Places I want to Visit

Places I want to visit:
1. Paris
2. Italy
3. Greece
4. Spain
5. Cabo


"For he will order his angels to protect you wherever you go. -Psalm 91:11"

People who inspire me

My mom: I have the best mom in world! She supports me like no other, and does everything she possibly can for me. She is so hard working, loving, and just an overall wonderful women!
My dad: He also does everything he possibly can. I have always loved listening to his life advice. I can always count on him to say it like it is, and suggest what he would do!
Kakie (my grandmother): I want to be her when I grow old! She is so sweet, loving, and just the cutest little lady! She is the best grandmother, and I think everyone wants to be like her!

I honestly have so many people I look up too! They are mostly family members, but there are a lot! I chose these people to write about just because they were immediate thoughts!

"Serve one another in love. -Galatians 5:13"

Top 3 Pet Peeves

So my top three pet peeves are:
1. Asking to many noise questions
   I hate when people keeping asking questions to find out details they do not need to know. Also when people are not involved with a conversation, but they over hear something and either ask "WHAT?" or automatically assume they are in the conversation. I think to myself each time "who asked you, and who asked you to join?" Just because you over hear is not invitation to find out or put you two cents into this conversation!
2. People yelling in the house when you are trying to sleep
   Have you ever seen that video of "Me when mom is sleeping VS Mom when I am sleeping"? That video is a perfect description of my house on Saturday and Sunday mornings. It gets to a point where I just go ahead and get up, because If I say something then my mom or Chris (stepdad) will come in my room and bug the crap out of me until I get up or start yelling. It is a bit ridiculous for them to be up at the butt crack of dawn yelling down the hall for each other.
3. Lying
   Yes, we all lie about things in life, but honestly people lie about the most stupid things. You ARE an adult, just tell the truth, and I promise things will go much more smooth!

So, Yeah these are my top three pet peeves! Number two is really stupid, but its true!

Something that someone has told you about yourself that you have never forgot

One thing specifically that someone has told me and I never forgot is that my attitude has gone back to normal. I was told this recently by some family members and some co-works. All of the conversations that involve this, started out by them asking how I have been doing, and what I have been up too. This then leads into them describing my attitude around certain people who I was hanging out with at the time. (This was about a week or two after I stopped hanging out with these people)
They say I no longer have this "B***" look on my face, and the "I hate the world" vibe! Which I agree with. I can tell that I am much happier now that I no longer hang out with negative people.
I learned the hard way about this. People tried to tell me everyday to stop hanging around these people and not let them influence me, but All I did was hurt myself, and did things I never should have done. I became this, horrible attitude, people hating person. I stuck up for the wrong instead of the right, and I let others change who I was, and the person I wanted to be.
I chose this to write about this, because it was not just a couple of weeks of horrible Jessica... It was a horrible Jessica for six months. After it all ended, I felt how I changed, and then had people telling me about the change. It is honestly the worst to hear about how bad you were becoming, from your own mother, and cousin. It hurts to hear about what you actually put them through! So, I chose this because of how it made me feel after. It made me want to hit rewind, and just not even come in contact with these people.
I am a firm believer in things happen for a reason, and I believe God had a plan for this all. I do not know what he was trying to show me specifically, but I think he had his reasons!

"Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good. -Romans 12:21"