One thing specifically that someone has told me and I never forgot is that my attitude has gone back to normal. I was told this recently by some family members and some co-works. All of the conversations that involve this, started out by them asking how I have been doing, and what I have been up too. This then leads into them describing my attitude around certain people who I was hanging out with at the time. (This was about a week or two after I stopped hanging out with these people)
They say I no longer have this "B***" look on my face, and the "I hate the world" vibe! Which I agree with. I can tell that I am much happier now that I no longer hang out with negative people.
I learned the hard way about this. People tried to tell me everyday to stop hanging around these people and not let them influence me, but All I did was hurt myself, and did things I never should have done. I became this, horrible attitude, people hating person. I stuck up for the wrong instead of the right, and I let others change who I was, and the person I wanted to be.
I chose this to write about this, because it was not just a couple of weeks of horrible Jessica... It was a horrible Jessica for six months. After it all ended, I felt how I changed, and then had people telling me about the change. It is honestly the worst to hear about how bad you were becoming, from your own mother, and cousin. It hurts to hear about what you actually put them through! So, I chose this because of how it made me feel after. It made me want to hit rewind, and just not even come in contact with these people.
I am a firm believer in things happen for a reason, and I believe God had a plan for this all. I do not know what he was trying to show me specifically, but I think he had his reasons!
"Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good. -Romans 12:21"
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