The Last Eight Months

When I think about the last eight months, I do not think of being happy or sad. I think about the different emotions I went through. Let me fill you in... I started my last year of this schooling chapter being content with life and all that would be on the road ahead of me. I saw my last year being filled with memories of friends, family and at that time a potential boyfriend. I started applying to schools to further my education and fulfill my dream of working in the field of Radiology Technology. While the stress of applying continued, so did the new relationship. This relationship at the time to me was fun and something new. We spent so much time with together by working and me always being at his house. It was not a relationship I really should have been in now that I look back on it. My first impression of this guy was not a good one at all. His lifestyle was not something I was use to or I needed to get use to, but I did. I went through this whole relationship thinking he and I would last a significant amount of time. I slowly started to see the truth about him. Now, I am not in any way trying to bash this guy, he had his sweet moments, but I should have known how this all would go.

Finishing the applying process, around the beginning of November was a huge relief, now I was just focused on my current schooling, family and boyfriend. The holidays were here and I  started to find out that my boyfriend felt awkward around my family which was a bit disappointing. I did not feel awkward around his, why did he feel this way around mine? That should have been the major warning signal number three, that he and I probably should not be together. I say that this should have been a signal because I am a family person. My family is big, and we love to get together, but there were many times I turned down a dinner with family because I knew he did not want to go. So I basically distanced myself for him. Now I started to get use to being around him a lot, and in my opinion, started to get closer.


Skipping a month or two, it is now March. He and I have now gone our separate ways and honestly it was for the better. I have so many people come to me and tell me that I just look happy, I do not have a look of "mad" anymore. I have found that this is all because of one person. I thought I was happy, but I can even tell a difference in myself. I do not feel the need to constantly worry or think about another person. I just think about me, and the road of life I am on. I changed much of myself in this past relationship, and did things I am not proud of at all, but I am now on a road to better myself with the help of family, friends and the Lord.

I am now just looking to my future, and feel so excited to welcome my niece this week, finish my last nine weeks of school strong, and go the direction the Lord wants me to go while remaining happy once again.

"Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart" -Psalm 37:4